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LadiEevil Registered User
Posts: 11
(6/16/03 6:28 am) Reply
Al Heaven
This is for discussion of fan fiction I take it, because you can find my fan fiction outside the forum by scrolling NM Online's table of contents and clicking on fan fiction. Anyways, this is an invitation to hear comments, feedback, and suggestions about Al Heaven if you should be so inclined.
i just wanted to say great job on Al Heaven so far. i love how you brought will back to town. also, how you've managed to work stuff in that's actually going on without it messing it up, since you took a little diff direction with the story than has happened on the show. keep writing.
Re: great job
I too am really enjoying your story-- i like how you habe borught in the different characters AND I ma glad that you let jen- move on-- i HOPE she finds ture love someday too- just NOT with al- i love al and marcie- heehee
No worries.. I won't disappoint MARCAL fans.. I'm one too!
Thanks so much. I'm going with the idea that all competition doesn't have to be left in the dust to make MARCAL work. I like the idea that Al has many options, and how Marcie still comes out on top. But I will take you on a couple turns that make you wonder whether he's going to stray... I hate to give that away, but I think its fun because it doesn't threaten Marcie's place, but shows more why she's the winner. At the same time, I can live in a world where the possibility of something hot going on with Al is always in the air.. alas its called Al Heaven. If I ever wrote something else.. which I'm considering so that I can write other fantasies.. it will be called Holden Hell, and it will be a nightmare sequence of events that he can awaken from. And its on and on and on... Its [Al] heaven and hell.
... LadyEevil
Char
PS Janine and Tasha are my barbie dolls Midge and Teresa.. he he..
just read chap 12...
and i have to say that i loved it. great chapter char. i especially loved when marcie went into al's room and he was sitting there shirtless. you don't know how much i want something like this to play out onscreen(and not just for the obvious reasons ) i would love to see marcie's reaction to something like this, her facial expressions are priceless sometimes. i can only imagine what she would look like.
aside from that i enjoyed the flash and will interation as well and then flash and al as well.
Ladyeevil Registered User
Posts: 10
(7/2/03 8:59 am) Reply
extended leave of fan fiction
I have too many things going on right now, but I will return to bring chapter 13 and 14 by the 3rd week of July...
Also, due to me getting back into acting this fall, I may not have time to do it anymore (but I'll try to add some here and there).. hope someone will come who can fill the void.. but Diner of Love has some good stuff too!
Re: extended leave of fan fiction
that's cool if you don't write much. i would soo step in and write something but i'm not really much of a writer. i'll just keep reading over at the diner of love, which are great too. that along with my trips to nathaniel st.( ) will just have to satisfy me. and i'll keep an eye out for more al heaven, even if it just comes in bits and pieces every now and then.
Ladyeevil Registered User
Posts: 53
(7/13/03 7:15 pm) Reply
Ch 14 is so MARCAL;-) you CAN live through Ch 13, I promise!
I can't help it... Al is a prince, and women are gonna like him.. but that doesn't mean that Marcie won't end up on top...
Ladyeevil Registered User
Posts: 57
(7/14/03 9:07 am) Reply
I'm going to make time to write about Walker and Blair too..
I know I'm about to start taking classes, but I can't help it! I love to pen fantasies too! MARCAL is sweetest love story ever told, and WB is well on its way to being the hottest. I love to write the really evil stuff sometimes and its not as appropriate for MARCAL, but WB looks promising, considering he's a Lawrence and she's a Cramer. My Al Heaven chapters might come less often, but they will come, perhaps one chapter a month... because I'm still, first, a NM fan who loves her MARCAL. My heart belongs to Al, our Prince Charming, and my inspiration the man who plays him.
Re: Ch 14 is so MARCAL;-) you CAN live through Ch 13, I prom
i just read chap 13 and i did enjoy it. it's funny cause i'm so used to marcie knowing that al is votn that i didn't even realize that she didn't know in your story, til reading this chap that is. and when marcie said, "Well, if she’s his type, he wasn’t for me anyway," i just had to laugh and say, "girl, if you only knew." and i didn't mind the al and jen stuff either, i know that girls are gonna be attracted to this yummy man, so just as long as nothing comes of it and he finds his way back to marcie it doesn't bother me. i can't wait to see what you give us next. and once a month won't bug me, if i want to read more marcal stuff i can just head over to the diner cause they got plenty of good stuff over there.
and about WB, i'm not so much into them. it will take a lot for a couple to steal my attention away from marcal. but if you write fic about WB i just might make an effort to read it cause i enjoy the way you write.
-"Well, after saying all those Shakespearean lines to you, it's kind of hard to come up with the right words, but, uh, I've been waiting for the moon to send down a goddess from the heavens. And then it must have done it because, uh...she's come."
-"From the tip of my heart to the depth of my soul, I Love You."
-"I promise that I will never wear clothes that you don't think I look good in." Rosario Cappamezza in "Love Is All There Is" played by Nathaniel Marston
I loved chap. 14
i just got around to reading it and it was great. you did a wonderful job at capturing those prince charming qualities in al that we have come to love so much. and i'm glad that marcie said that she wouldn't be able to concentrate on studying with him around, what girl in their right mind could? i would not be able to concentrate on studying even if we were in a huge room and he was on the other side of it. even if i couldn't even see him but knew he was there would still be enough for me not to be able to concentrate. i'd keep looking up to see if i could see him now, hehe.
anyways, loved the chapter and can't wait to read what happens next.
Jen
aka whitetiger or the newly dubbed Eevil Awakening
On the outside I may look like a sweet little cat but beware because underneath it all is a ferocious tiger ready to pounce at a moments notice.
-"Well, after saying all those Shakespearean lines to you, it's kind of hard to come up with the right words, but, uh, I've been waiting for the moon to send down a goddess from the heavens. And then it must have done it because, uh...she's come."
-"From the tip of my heart to the depth of my soul, I Love You."
-"I promise that I will never wear clothes that you don't think I look good in." Rosario Cappamezza in "Love Is All There Is" played by Nathaniel Marston
Keeper of the Wing at St. Anne's for the Nuts for Nathaniel
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Posts: 429
(9/21/03 3:30 pm) Reply
Okay, new chapter, I hope I wrote what y'all will relate to
It killed me to write during this time period considering I use the actual canvas as my canvas... but I found a place I could write something, and hope you all will feel it...
I stayed with the theme of what its like to be a fan, and I was able to get in touch with my muse...
Keeper of the Wing at St. Anne's for the Nuts for Nathaniel
DNMF#2
Smitten Kitten
Posts: 458
(9/29/03 5:10 pm) Reply
I'm too stunned to even know what to say...
I wrote part of my new chapter and hadn't given it to Brittany yet.. and I about FAINTED when I saw today's show.. I was thinking about that movie "City of Angels" since its about a ghost.. (I also thought about "Ghost") and let it inspire me for my next chapter... and I already used the freakin song "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls... and Marcie sang that today. OMG. This is beyond creepy anymore. I really don't get all these weirdo coincidences. At first, I thought it was coincidences with NM... like using the word "quitessential" and those things I wrote that I thought I was going overboard about. Then I realized my own premonition about my own ability to sing... and now... writing coincidences.
Do I just empathize so much with the way Al is being written that I'm thinking the same as the writer[s]? Who is Al's writer? I sometimes wonder if I am more connected to him/her/them, than even Nathaniel. If that writer is out there and ever reads my stuff... I really relate. Youre an amazing person to me. You probably don't get much recognition like the actors.. but its not about that for me.. for me, its always about people transcending reality, and speaking to the soul...
I mean.. maybe I'm writing obvious stuff that anyone would have.. or what is it? I write comments about Al, about how I'd flatline myself if I had to go down memory lane Max remembering Al.. okay.. so that's an obvious one that a writer would do, and I wouldn't chock it up to anything.. any more than thinking Al's comment about music with a beat had anything to do with my off-topic comment about loving music with a beat... or that Marcie is written with a brother who is there for her the way I wanted Jen to have one... or even that Rex is trying to connect with Jen's bad side, which has nothing to do with my fan fiction, but posts I'm embarrassed of. Ok, maybe I'm just in tune with ideas writers think of in general..
But I also said in my Disclaimer in my last chapter, that I'd let Al be a symbol if NM wasn't staying.. and that's exactly what the show did, even though Al is staying for good. And I had Will talking about how Al would understand joking at a time like this... And my fanfiction is called Al Heaven... HEAVEN! And Whitetiger's "Al's not so wonderful life" has Al living in a dream sequence... And I wrote LONG ago about how I wanted to express what its like to be a FAN in my fan fiction, and that's the story of the VOTN... Oh, if you are out there, Al writer... I don't know if its all that were on the same page, and please know, you are WELCOME to any ideas should that be an issue... though I realize you must have written most of things before I write mine, yet I write mine before I see yours.. weird. Its just too strange of a coincidence not to wonder) If you are out there.. I am also YOUR fan, not just NMs. I've spent years onlining and complaining about writers, and talking a good game about how I could do better (not that my stream of consciousness musing posts, or my fiction unedited musings that pour from the top of my head with no revision... that I call fan fiction are really an example.. I don't have time for REAL writing).. I am probably such a jerk for talking so much garbage about writers over the years.. Oh, you know how Knollies talk if you are familiar with the main places to get ideas from fans... I go way back with that crowd.. and no matter how much I've complained, you get nothing but praise from me.
I also remembered wondering about the facial piercing comment by Asa right after SSW Anaheim... I know I thought of a few other coincidences and I'll edit this post when I recall them..
I leave with this lyric cuz I'm taking "Iris" out of my fan fiction... "When everything seems like the movies, yeah, you bleed just to know your alive" Sometimes I think that's WHY I have those piercings... but actually THAT particular song... reminds me of this past summer when all I seemed to want from NM is "I just want you to know who I am". Man that song.. "Youre the closest to heaven that I've ever been"... yeah... that had something to do with the name of my fan fiction. I just never said it because it was embarassing.. but I'm in control now... so I can look back and admit it... but man.. I didn't really want Al to go to heaven.. and I'm glad that Heaven Can Wait... Heck.. I'd wait forever...
Ladyeevil Keeper of the Wing at St. Anne's for the Nuts for Nathaniel
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Smitten Kitten
Posts: 581
(10/19/03 10:36 pm) Reply
Chapter 20 - The final chapter
Chapter 20 – The End of All Things to Come
[Will’s Place – Al’s Bedroom, now Marcie and Jen’s Bedroom]
Marcie turns a 180 calling for Al.
Marcie: Al?
Al: You hear me?
Marcie: Yes! Where are you?
Al: Here
Marcie: I don’t see you.
Al: Because I’m not alive.
Marcie stares off into space.
Marcie: You… aren’t really here?
Al: Yes I’m here.
Marcie: I’m going crazy.
Al: Marcie. You are many things. Crazy is not one of them.
Marcie: It really is you?
Al: You think I could stay away from you, even in death?
Marcie is paralyzed with emotion. A tear falls.
Marcie: Are you going to stay with me?
Al: I don’t know.
Marcie: I guess I’m not going crazy if my mind can’t even answer that question.
Al: Marcie, you crack me up.
Marcie smiles.
Al: Now, that’s what I came for.
Marcie: What?
Al: To see you smile.
Marcie: I love you Al.
Al: And my love for you crosses the darkest boundary that was ever imagined by man, my love.
Marcie: But I can’t touch you.
Al: You touch me in every way that counts.
Marcie: Oh Al! I want to feel you, to touch you!
Al: I never stopped feeling you Marcie. I think… my soul can’t cross over without being able to disconnect from yours. So… I just won’t. Can you love me this way?
Marcie: You love me just the way I am, so what do you think?
Al: Do you understand the intensity of what I feel for you? … the implications of my ability to come to you this way? Even as I am capable of it, I don’t understand how…
Marcie looks down.
Marcie: But… if this were true, then it would have happened to other people.
Al: What we share is that rare.
Marcie: I guess we never knew how rare. If people only knew…
Al jumps in.
Al: They’d be so happy, they would want to live in our story… to reach toward something that wonderful in their own lives.
Marcie: I would spend my life with you, even like this.
Al: That’s the beauty of it. And because of you, I even GET that.
Marcie: Can love transcend reality?
Al: Our love is real. It is alive, even if I’m not. It’s like we created something bigger than ourselves, and it exists in its own right. That is what keeps us connected.
Marcie: Al!
Al: Yes Marcie…
Marcie: I feel you leaving me.
Al: I’ll be back. Nothing can keep me from you.
Marcie: Al!
No response is returned. Marcie gulps and begins to shake. She collapses in pain, and cries on the bed.
Marcie: Please come back. Please…. Please don’t leave me here. I want to be with you.
Marcie sits up and appears to have found courage.
Marcie: I’d go to heaven to find you. Now I know there is something after death. I’ll go to be with you, your true angel. I would do it to be with you, just as you won’t disconnect from me! I love you as you are, as you have loved me.
Al’s spirit fights TPTB in heaven fearing Marcie would do something to join him….
Al (faintly heard as his voice fades): Don’t worry angel. I can’t stay, but I’ll be back. It’s all I can do to get this message to you.. I’d stay if I could.. I love you… I promise. I will be back.
Marcie: I hear you! If you can still hear me.. I’ll be right here, waiting for you.
Al: Don't be scared.
[The Garage]
Jen: Al, I wish I could have told you what you meant to me. I couldn’t. It wasn’t right. It wasn’t my place. I loved you enough to respect you, enough to be happy for you, enough to understand what you and Marcie have.
Will: Who are you talking to?
Jen: Sometimes funerals are not the place everyone can say goodbye. Now that I know who Al really was, I think his spirit is here… where music inspires people.
Will: Al. I understand that. Hea, you think you are the only one that cries to the heavens?
Jen: You don’t think I’m crazy?
Will: Me? The guy who can’t get out of his head, except long enough to belt out a tune?
Jen: It just feels dorky I guess.
Will: No. You need to let it out, express yourself.
Jen: I’ll walk you to the stage. What are you gonna do?
Will: I wanted to do something in the spirit of the Voice. You’ll see.
Jen: Did you speak to Flash?
Will: No.
Jen: Why not?
Will: Not my place… but I’m jealous she came on the stage with you. She has many fans these days, and I’m just one among them.
Jen: So…
Will: If she ever shared a stage with me, I’d want it to be because she wanted to. I’d rather have nothing from her than less than that. The irony is that I would have loved being on a stage with her possibly more than anyone else, but it’s all so pointless to think about what’s fair. Al died, what’s fair in that?
Jen: I don’t get what’s so special about her.
Will: I don’t even understand it myself. I mean, I could sit here and ramble off about reasons, but it doesn’t change the fact that I don’t really know why I’m drawn to her. I know I saw her with her fans at the funeral, and there’s this special quality. She didn’t judge them even while they were being total jerks. She inspired them to focus that energy toward greater things. I can only aspire to having the ability to harness energy that way.… awww man… you know. I don’t want to go there anymore.
Jen: And she’s beautiful?
Will: And so are plenty of other women. Tasha is waiting for me tonight. That woman is amazing.
Jen: Janine and Tasha always seem like they are up to no good.
Will smiles wickedly.
Will: Maybe.. cuz… they are?
Jen: They do seem to know how to enjoy life.
Will: And they have great taste in men, I might add.
Will brushes his arm playfully.
Jen: Stop! Seriously though… You believed in Flash long before she was being rushed by mobs, long before anyone ever paid all that much attention to her.
Will: And what does that mean?
Jen: Well, okay, maybe nothing,
Will: So cut me some slack?
Jen: Yeah sure. How bad could it be if it pushed you to finally get your band together?
Will: I’m going on in a couple minutes.
Chaos, Will’s band, performs “Cool to Hate” by The Offspring.
“I hate a lot of things
I hate a lot of people that are lame
I like to hate stuff
Cause then I don’t have to try and make a change
I hate teachers
I hate school
I hate the cheerleaders
And anyone who’s cool
I hate the office
I hate the quad
Don’t wanna learn nothing
I want to be a slob
It’s cool to hate
I don’t like nothing and I like that fine
Yeah I hate everything and I even hate you too
So F## you
I’m always thinking bad
I never have nothing good to say
I’d rather tear things down
Than build them up
It’s easier that way
I hate the jocks
And I hate the geeks
I hate the trendies
But I also hate the freaks
I hate Dr. Martens
And muscle tees
I’m only happy when I’m in misery
It’s cool to hate
Liking something’s just a waste of time
It’s cool to hate
Yeah I hate everything
And I even hate you too
So F### you
I’ll cut you down and give you lip
Being positive is so unhip
I’ll cut you down cuz I’m a fool”
Will (as the band continues with the tune): Now you all know it’s not about the haters, right? Hate is why we lost our voice!
Someone in the crowd: The Voice of the Night lives!
Will: Here’s to Al!
Someone in the crowd: I knew Al! Wish I knew he was the voice!
Will: I knew him. He was my best friend. And he does live...
Someone in the crowd: I taped it all!
Someone else in the crowd: I did too!
Will: And because of you, the voice lives on!
[Later that night, at Will’s Place. Marcie is asleep, as Will and Jen recount the events that transpired]
Jen: Marcie should have been there.
Will: She needed to be with Al.
Jen: You think she was sitting her grieving?
Will: Sometimes people need to do that.
Jen: Maybe I should have been here.
Will: That’s not what she wanted. You sensed that. You left it at that. I respect that. A lot better than the fans of Midnight Logic did at the funeral.
Jen: Big deal.
Will: Jen… c’mere sis.
Will hugs Jen. Jen pulls back afterwards.
Jen: What is that for?
Will: For being cool.
Jen: Huh?
Will: Let’s go to Cali.
Jen: You want to go back?
Will: With you.
Jen: I need to be here for Marcie.
Will: She has plenty of support. Marcie and Al inspired this entire town.
Jen: What if she’s pregnant?
Will: What if.
Jen: She’d need me.
Will: You want to raise her kid with her… and lest we forget the rest of the good citizens of Llanview…
Jen: It’s all that’s left of Al.
Will: It’s about Al, isn’t it? Always has and always will be, huh? Yeah, you love him so much, you wanted him to be happy with Marcie, but it’s always been about Al for you. When is going to be about YOU Jen?
Jen: What difference does it make?
Will: I’d raise the kid with her too.
Jen looks at Will quizzically.
Will: Hea, you’re talking to a guy who is jealous of Al for having Marcie’s love. She’s an amazing girl.
Jen: You like Marcie?
Will: What difference does that make?
Jen: Point taken.
Will: Are your ready to face who you are?
Jen: What do you mean?
Will: You got on a stage tonight. How did that feel?
Jen: Like something you asked me to try.
Will: I guess I was wrong about you.
Jen: What do you mean?
Will: Haven’t you ever wondered why we don’t seem to fit in? I mean, you’ve always been at the top of everyone’s A-list.. but why do you choose the unbeaten trail? You could have any guy you want, but when you got over Cris, you want Al? You buy a motorcycle, step on Madison for Marcie, and don’t wonder what it is about you that makes you real on all those levels?
Jen: I never thought about it.
Will: Al is an artist. That’s a hint.
Jen looks quizzically again.
Will: You didn’t know he was the voice of the night, but you weren’t drawn to him until he became that guy. Sure, you obviously ENJOYED him or you wouldn’t have slept with him three times… no offense intended. The guy sent some signals that your body responded to. But, can you can say it was a coincidence that you got over Cris at the same time you realized how special he is? Do you really think that is what it was about for you?
Jen: He did seem a little pathetic until he didn’t care about me anymore. I thought it was the one that got away, that he became out of my reach. At least I worried that was why. You think I’m attracted to creative people? I mean, Cris was an artist. Is that your point?
Will: Bingo. Though I don’t think Cris is capable of the energy that Al has, uh, had. But yeah, he had something that people relate to, and it wasn’t until he stepped up that he was really connecting.
Jen looks down.
Jen: Why did he have to leave us?
Will: Don’t let it be for nothing.
Jen: And I’d have to go to California to ensure this?
Will: Are you satisfied to be on the sidelines with Marcie and all the good citizens of Llanview who will dote over her baby? Is it his love of his woman, and the baby or his Voice? I mean, it is HERS, ya know, and all this assuming she’s pregnant.
Jen: I know she is.
Will: How?
Jen: I just do. You think if I really loved Al I wouldn’t be able to sense that his kid exists?
Will: Okay, if you are cool with that.
Jen: What?
Will: I got an impression too.
Jen: I believe in that sort of thing.
Will: Did you get a rush from singing tonight? How did it feel to share the stage with Flash?
Jen: Like I care about HER, ewwww.
Will: All the same.
Jen: Okay, I don’t even like the girl and there I was, trippin’ that I was on stage with someone famous. I’d rather it was Al, the Voice of the Night, than… Fulashhh.
Will: Choose.
Jen: Between what?
Will: Al, or yourself.
Jen: I don’t have to.
Will: Yes, you do.
Jen: Whatever.
Will: Why is what I’m saying scaring you? Why are we different from others Jen? Why are we misfits? Has it ever occurred to you that we don’t belong here in Llanview?
Jen: Huh? I belong here.
Will: My mistake.
Jen: If you have something to say, just say it!
Will: That’s it! Call a spade a spade! It would be one thing if you and Al were together, but you aren’t. That’s not who you ARE! Al had the courage to get on the airwaves and share his heart. You sensed it even as you didn’t know it. THAT is what you love. It’s not AL! When are you going to GET THAT!?
Jen starts crying.
Jen: I know how I feel.
Will: And you know this because of our great upbringing, I’ll bet! Hea, while you’re at it, why not check in with mom and ask her opinion? Or dad, the man that loved a woman who never gave him what he needed!
Jen: Why are you saying this to me?
Will: I love you enough to tell you the truth. Or is it only Al that will get through to you? He’s not here, sweetheart! I am!
Jen: Not the same.
Will: Obviously.
Jen: Do we have to leave town?
Will: To focus on what you need to?
Jen: And forget that Marcie is still here and that I love her?
Will: That’s what writing is for. You can keep your eye on what happens in this ridiculous town. You can check in, but let it GO!
Jen: And just leave everyone else to take care of Marcie.
Will: The whole town loves her. She’ll be fine, but what about YOU? Okay, what do you think Al would want for you? To cry over him?
Jen: To be happy. To laugh.
Will: Okay, now were getting somewhere. What makes YOU happy?
Jen: You are saying the stage?
Will: You tell ME!
Jen: How do you know this?
Will: There’s a story about someone I never finished with Al.
Jen: What?
Will: You think that music called me by name enough to walk away from my job at that law firm? Men who wanted me to turn against everything I value in life? Bottom lines that didn’t care about human value? Women wanting to help my career, and trying to get into my bed?
Jen: You never told me about your life in California.
Will: Me and my inspiration… we aren’t in touch, but she told me to look to the stars and she’d always be there, listening to me. That’s why I refer to her as Star.
Jen: Who?
Will: A woman who convinced me I had to be true to myself, and that everything else would work out if I did that. People like me don't do real jobs, and white collars. I don't need absolutes, safety nets... I want each day of my life to be part of a journey toward something greater, and that means taking risks, and reaching for the stars. I want my existence to send reverberations into the universe... positive energy and inspiration.
Jen: You inspire me. It sounds strange though. You think there's really happiness to be found on that road?
Will: Sounds cliché’, I know. But Star... she decided she wanted to do something that seemed idiotic. The cards were stacked against her. But pursuing her dreams was her pleasure. And what else is life about?
Jen: Pleasure? Life for the pursuit of pleasure? Sounds familiar. Will, you're beginning to sound like... you know... Isn’t that what our country was based on? The pursuit of pleasure? Should I start singing the national anthem too?
Will: Happiness actually. No one can guarantee anything means anything, so why not? And hea, if supporting Marcie sounds like pleasure to you, then by all means…
Jen: I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I’m just scared.
keep writing.
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